Yesterday was spent celebrating what is arguably the most important day on a Christian’s calendar, Easter. It means another year of life and my 2nd Easter without my son. It’s amazing how time can keep marching on when your heart seems to be standing still. When I think about today and I really take a few minutes in between the hustle and bustle of making cupcakes, filling baskets, coloring eggs, preparing meals, traveling to different families’ homes, getting all of the perfect pictures, coordinating elaborate outfits and all of the other things we get caught up in….when I really pause and praise God for what Easter is…I get so emotional. I become so overwhelmed and my heart just tries to leap out of my chest.
As I think about Easter, I think about giving my only son away…I didn’t GIVE him away, the Lord took him home…but I try to imagine what kind of love it is that would allow your son to die in the most excruciating way all for dirty black-hearted sinners like us. God allowed his son to die on a cross for those men that were piercing his side, the men that were driving the nails into his hands and feet, the men and women that were spitting in his face and mocking him as he took his last breath…the vilest person you can imagine…Jesus would have still died on the cross even if it had only been for that one person.
Would I have given up my son so that person could have eternal life? No! Does it mean that I love my son more? No!! It demonstrates the incomprehensible love that God has for us, that even while we were sinners, Christ died for us. That kind of love that we just can’t understand, the love we just can’t wrap our heads around, the sacrificial love of Jesus is the purest form of the word, that is AGAPE love.
Agape love is sacrificial and selfless love. It is love in action. It is love that keeps on giving even when we aren’t showing any love in return. This is the kind of love that allows us to keep hope in the deepest and darkest times of our life. Agape love is what allows us to obtain the free give of salvation and have an eternal home in heaven. Agape love is grace on display as Christ hung on the cross.
If you’re having trouble really understanding it, don’t worry, you’re not alone. I know that I will never fully understand the love the Father has for me. As much as I love my children and as much as I would be willing to give up my life if Camp could live, God’s love is so much stronger than any love I could offer. While I don’t understand it, I’m so thankful for it. Through this love, we can have something to look forward to when our life on earth is over. Once we take our final breath on earth, we will enter Heaven and for the rest of eternity, it will be Easter every day. Every day we will spend at the feet worshipping the risen Savior.
This chorus has played over and over in my head and heart throughout this last week. I can’t wait to have Easter every day!
O the blood of Jesus washes me
O the blood of Jesus shed for me
What a sacrifice that saved my life
Yes, the blood, it is my victory
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8