I have been trying to write this post and what God has put on my heart for several weeks now, but the words just wouldn’t come. Even now, I don’t know that I will be able to adequately describe what my heart is feeling, but I pray that it does give encouragement to someone reading.
At the end of July, our family took a trip with Brent’s parents to the Grand Canyon. We were all excited about visiting this landmark and seeing one of God’s most unique and amazing creations. As I gazed down into the mile-deep chasm and stood in awe of such a magnificent creation, I felt that I if I could open up my heart and pour out this agonizing grief that it would fill the Grand Canyon up to the rim and spill over.
But, then I began to think about God’s goodness and how through His unending faithfulness, He fills those gaping holes with his love, grace and mercy. As the Colorado River runs through the canyon, it becomes very small and almost invisible at times, but you know it’s still there running through the deep rocks. Just as there are times in my life when I feel like God’s river of mercy has dried up because it’s so hard for me to see it at work in my life, I trust that it’s still there. He is still present in my life working out everything for my good and His glory if I will just let Him.
Each day we would see a new part of the canyon, or a new part of the river or new rock formations it reminded me how the landscape of my life has changed. Every few miles across Nevada, Arizona and Utah, the landscape would change drastically. We would see one thing and talk about how amazing and beautiful it was, then we would see something totally different and be just as amazed. God has been steadily changing the landscape of my life over the last 2 years. He has given and He has taken away, there have been steep hills and deep valleys, but through it all, in the grief and in the glory, He has been so faithful.
This verse from Lamentations, a book of sorrow and grief, continues to speak to me…
Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning, GREAT is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23
This book reminds me that even through our deepest grief and darkest hours of life, we can remain so full of hope. God proves His faithfulness to us through our times of sorrow and despair, and He desires to draw us in close to Him, pouring all of that out to Him because He can and will carry this load that is too great to bear on our own.
Along with the verse from Lamentations, the words of this song speak straight to my heart!
“Great is His Faithfulness” by Charity Gayle
If you’ve wrestled with the ache of loss
And why this has been your road to walk
He bore your pain, He wore your cross
Oh lift your head
Morning is coming There’s more to the story
In grief and in glory great is His faithfulness
Thank you for your continued encouragement for our family! We love and treasure the prayers of each person that has called to the Lord on our behalf. Whatever season of life you’re in, however deep the sorry, God will remain faithful. His mercies are new every morning and His faithfulness is so incredibly great!