I know that mine, or my families’ story is not entirely unique. I know that there are many Christians that have faced countless tragedies in life. Christian, or non-Christian, none of us are exempt from difficulties and trials.
I wish I could say that I was some super-Christian like Lottie Moon, Billy Graham, Charles Spurgeon, Christine Caine, James Dobson, Rick Warren, Lysa Turkeurst…,not they consider themselves a “super-Christian”, but you get the picture. I say that I wish I was like them, because these influential leaders of the Christian faith seem to have an unwavering faith, much stronger than mine. They seem to take these trials as they happen, always trusting and rarely questioning. Their faith is big and pushes out their fears.
I still have so many questions that I beg God for the answers to, but I know I probably won’t get this side of Heaven. If you’ve ever been through a similar trial and have asked questions that are at all similar, I pray that the promises God has reminded me of will minister to your heart.
- God, why didn’t you give my son an earthly healing?
- God, why did you allow it to be my child to have cancer?
- God, did I not have enough faith as Camp’s mother for him to be healed?
- Why didn’t I receive a modern-day, big, unbelievable miracle?
- Why wasn’t Camp given a chance to grow up and share his testimony and use his healing as a way to lead others to Jesus?
When my mind starts reeling with these type of questions, I am not at peace. My soul is restless and I have to dig deep into His promises to remind me of who God really is and strengthen my fragile faith.
This earth is not our home, our earthly bodies are only going be here for a very short time, and the ultimate destination is heaven. So, while we see the lack of an earthly healing as death, we also know that to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord (2 Corinthians 5:8). Heaven is where we all long to be, death is not the end, it is only the beginning.
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old things has passed away. Romans 21:4
First, God did not give Camp cancer. When sin entered the world, so did sickness and disease. Each of us will experience trials, and when, not if, we must allow God to work on us in the midst of it. If we do, God will allow that trial that tests our faith to bring forth patience and perseverance (James 1:2-4). Whatever trial we face, God will always be bigger and supremely sufficient in His power to bring us through it.
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. John 16:33
Our faith is always being strengthened as we grow in our relationship with the Lord. There is never a cap on how much faith we can have. With each trial as we trust God, our faith grows. I never could have enough faith to heal Camp, God had to heal him….and He did when he made his body whole and free from disease in Heaven.
22 So Jesus answered and said to them, “Have faith in God. 23 For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. Mark 11:22-24
Answering these persistent questions that are weighing on my heart and mind with God’s promises do give me peace. Digging into God’s promises and holding onto hope with His word increases my faith and allows me to push through each day as I’m filled with His strength and perseverance.
If you’re in the middle of a trial, draw in close to the Lord. Cling to His promises and allow Him to reveal Himself to you in a new way. God’s word is alive, sharp, but tender, full of truth and abounding in love. If you don’t believe me, dig in and see for yourself!